As we begin to bring awareness to our thoughts we can see, feel and know when we are in the moment of the lower ego or heart. Recognizing the ego's theatrics helps us to stop the pattern and drop into the spaciousness of the heart, and live from our higher ego that helps us to achieve our dreams and create from the heart in service. Through introspection and contemplation we access a well of knowledge, cultivating an embodied sense of self- a state that holds the ego accountable to the heart. Harnessing the power of the ego comes from understanding the associations of the negative mind, why and where they come from, which equates to a wonderful release and unattached knowing that it is not the real you.
In order to begin our steps in self-awareness, we need to become familiar with our own sense of self ego and how you view yourself. Your ego is the "I" image you have about yourself and what face you put on for the world. The titles you cling to and the roles you take on to support the way you want to be seen. Do you present yourself as the athlete, business entrepreneur, peace maker, shiny and happy, etc? The list is infinite. But what the ego loves to do, is to make us feel different from others. It enjoys comparing and contrasting.
Without self- awareness and compassion for self and other's, a person's ego can easily lose touch with reality if there is a lack of feeling, or numbness per say in the body. It is then the ego steps up and takes control.You know that you are caught by the ego when you take things personally, becoming judgmental and jealous. You become rigid, fearful and stuck in a circling of thoughts and consumed by your emotions. Easily hurt by others actions and external situations, your inner dialogue zooms in on anxieties and self-criticisms that demise your self worth. Your ego is feed by the need of validation from others, thus you are easily bruised when things don't go your way., or people easily offend you. The ego has expectation, but we quickly learn that this only brings disappointment. Thus when you are living in the ego you are easily hurt and swayed from your peace, rather than experiencing life's constant change, there is a timidness and anxiety. The ego loves attention and if given enough, becomes addicted to it. When it becomes out of control it will stop at nothing to get its way- creating conditions that stifle the heart and its feeling capacity. When turned inward the lower ego looks like the self- critic, tyrant or saboteur.
When we drop into the heart, we are feeling and connected to everything around us. We are awakened, living in our soul self. We feel from our innate spirit perspective, no longer hindered by the small human mind, but connected to source. It is an impersonal state of being that melts the personality of me, he and she. It is who you are without labels, roles, expectations and social masks. A state that is always there even when you are living in the moment of ego. The part of you that never changes and is forever the divine energy of the Universe that flows through all things.
Living from your soul self, your true self, your intuition is potent and in tune with everything around you. Your inner voice guides you. Your love and acceptance of self and others flows without protective mechanisms. Your goals and desires are clearly supported not by your sense of self-worth, but by a deep knowing and insight of the gifts you have to offer the world. You accept people as they are and are able to forgive easily, with an understanding of accountability and trust in the arrival of discomforts, now viewed as teaching and growth moments that expand and push us into greater power and love. Your creativity bubbles up from within you, and their is a deep motivating force that flows. You find yourself being lost in the moment of now, feeling an indescribable connection to everything around you. As if nature is speaking to you in all that shows up, letting you know you are on the right path, A dance that feels effortless as if your being pushed and often carried by something unseen. You feel free, fearless and empowered in following your dharma, knowing your unique purpose and gifts were given to you for a reason. To be acted upon, not wasted in a moment of frivolity. Knowing that we each are unique expressions of Source.
Our heart and soul are ever present and eternal, but we are human and although there is awareness of our heart's song, we can slip back into the moment of the ego. But the beauty is that when we are in the moment of mindful awareness, we recognize our grand theatrics with clarity. We see how our words and thoughts derail us: and our trapped roles of identity bind and define. There is a realization that our repetitive fears, worry, superficial desires, ignorance's, judgments, or wrong actions come back to school us, until we fully sink into a greater expansive heart centered ease. A newer but deeper layer of our story, the ego we thought we released exacerbates suddenly, rubbing us wrong. With guided awareness we dismantle with love. and compassion. Guiding the subtle haunting deformities of the ego into truth and stillness of mind. Living from the heart is a journey, a slow dissolution of our human lower animal like qualities that levitates us into our spirit self in human flesh.
It is our hearts' only desire to love deeper and expand wider into our awareness and authenticity, truth and luminous being. All which can never be defined or put into a box. For we are nothing and everything at the same time. Each an extension and unique expression of source in dense human material form that can spread wings and fly once we shed the heavy coils of the ego.
If you are ready to journey into the heart stay tuned for my next musing.