The Person You Used To Be

You remember what it was like, but those days are long ago. You are not the person you used to be. The one searching and seeking. Trying to find your place in life. Desiring your people, your land, your mission, your gifts. Lost within a sea of noise and distraction. A feeling deep within saying "I'm not where I'm supposed to be, but I have not a clue where I should be".  A vast array of lessons fed by society's projections and rules and personal discomforts and misguidance, yet a deep knowing that there's so much more here that I'm not seeing. A moment in time where everything within was screaming, "THIS IS NOT ME!!!, but Who AM I?".

Synchronicities gently guiding, until one day there was no more denying. Spirit, life, lovingly slapped, beat and held you down until you could no longer ignore the calling to find Truth. Direct messages from an energy far greater than your singularity. An earthquake to wake up from the Dream of existence. Undeniable experiences away from the structures of materiality into greater expansions of  I AM everything, but nothing. Energy pulsing through the universe. A tiny drop of personality in a vast ocean of creativity.

From that moment and the many moments after that, you were destined to follow the blue line that would unveil the newness and truth of your being. The arrows clearly showing to follow Great Spirit wherever guided. "Surrender" you hear, no matter how uncomfortable it became. Doors opened one by one. Step by Step a movement into experience, initiations, miracles, magic and mystery.. A beautiful, hard and uneasy unraveling that led to the realization, "I am not of my own design. I did not choose this path. I was called to step into this path".  A dissolution so Grace can pulse through you. An instrument of the one and only Father and Mother. To put aside ego, arise out of fear and assist in the awakening from the imbalance of our small piece in relation to the whole. A follower of no one but the path that is lovingly set before to dispel the lies and disempowering structures within and around, despite the many who do not accept all that is becoming and will become, for the person you used to be, is not the one you are now. 

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As you awaken the world around remains asleep. Yet, your presence, your process into a greater expansion of being is not only your awakening, but a calling for those around you to awaken. The one's who knew you before your transformation have a hard time accepting the new you, and many fall away from your periphery of view. Because when you step into your power and authenticity, it becomes a sore spot, a reminder that perhaps they too need to make changes. Your awakening touches wounded places within them that stirs ancient held beliefs, fears, jealousy, stifled creativity and power struggles that minimize the movement into greater freedom. The thought of, "Who are you? I've known you since... You are not that". 

Whatever your experience, whatever their experience, you will find resistance that arises in relationship to your loved ones and your change. The push and pull exists to make you stronger, more compassionate, to have more tolerance.  It's a process of balance and recalibration, to allow the old to fall away and the truth of you to usher more fully into your being. 

At times you will take it personally. Your ego will be hurt. Your wounds will be triggered. You will feel alone. Each and every wounded part of you will be activated so that the heartbeat of truth can seep into every crevice within you. A call to cleanse and claim all the fragmented parts of your energy field that you can finally now love and fully embrace. A knowledge that there is no turning back. Nor would you ever want to because this incredible magic, aliveness and connectedness is so fucking delicious and beautiful. There is no possible way you could ever imagine returning to the realms of duality that once existed within you. For you are destined to live your truth, and live out that which Great Spirit desires to move through you. Knowing that which you are now, will naturally magnetize greater truth, joy and freedom, allowing more of the universe to birth through you with pure awareness.